I realize I made a bold move coming to oregon. I put myself far out of my comfort zone, and in most areas I don’t have the results I was looking for.
So I think I’ve been pushed just far enough to move out of the comfort zone I’ve put myself in here.
I need to go home soon (for a visit), I know in my last post I said I’d just want to come back, but that trip was my light at the end if the tunnel, and if it doesn’t work out I think I will actually go crazy.
That is why I am going to quit my job, and find a new one. My boss, who earlier said it was fine, is now saying I may not be able to go home.
Have I ever written one good thing about that job on here? The answer is no. It is my primary source of interaction and the main reason I leave the house, I think I should be doing something that I at least get some REAL social interaction out of and enjoy. Because as of now I sit alone in a room for 7 hours. That on it’s own should’ve driven me off a cliff weeks ago.
I may just be trying to justify my somewhat impulsive decision, but everyone around me has given me their approval.
I have control over these things, I need to remind myself that I don’t have to suffer to please people who don’t have a fraction of that consideration for me.